爱，到底是什么？

凌晨俩点了
全部人都已在自己的梦里
好梦，恶梦
给我都无所谓
我只想现在已在自己的梦里
什么都不用想
眼泪
我好讨厌你
为什么总是不听我的使唤拼命的往下流？
察干了眼泪
却又在不自觉中我的脸庞又湿了
爱，请问我该怎么走？
为什么你要在我最难挨的时候来找我？
爱，
可以把你从谷底拉出来
但，
却又可以瞬间狠狠地把你推下去
爱，
就是可以这样的残忍
一直一直对你肆虐
一直一直掌控着你的情绪
让你做什么都觉得空虚
爱，
难道需要一直计算对方所付出的吗？
爱，
难道是单方面的明白与体会就够了吗？
爱，到底是什么？
我不明白
好不容易收拾好受伤的心情
勇敢地接受新的一份爱
但是，
爱就好像是一直一直
的在提醒着我过去的伤口
让我瞬间好想放弃这份爱
我要的东西真的很简单
我只想要被珍惜
可是，
往往在你身边的事物却远远比我还要重要
我在你生命中，
真的如此没有价值？
属世的事物真的有那么重要吗？
比你走的慢的脚步
你只是在前头为我加油，打气
从来不了解我很累
没有力气跟着你
泪水滑过脸颊
很快的，我立刻把它察掉
不想被你看到
我那愚蠢的样子
爱你，
.............................
我不知道要怎样去爱你
更不知道
我要怎样走下去
好想赶快离开这里
至少
思念比现在还来的简单
至少，
不会有人打扰你
至少，
想见你的心很快的就会麻木
至少，
我可以到没有人认识我的地方
静静的想念你
慢慢地去享受想一个人的滋味
也许，
我的离去
可以让我们更清楚知道自己要的是什么
又或许，
你会有更好的选择...

College life...

What I can say about my college life is
DAMN TORTURING!!!
I am really tired...
The timetable like.....
SHIT
So pack...
So many test...
So many assignment
And today is only my second day
and I am here
SICK
Shit....

因为

歌手：范玮琪 专辑：范范的世界

总在我家巷口和你分手
彷佛偶像剧一样
觉得我们就要发生些什么
总在回家时候不知所措
想再打电话给你
可是再见刚刚才说过
有一种想要拥抱你的冲动
想静静看着你的笑容
让你藏在怀中
直到我每天的尽头因
为想一个人而寂寞
因为爱一个人而温柔
因为有一个梦而执着
因为等一个人而折磨
因为想一个人而解脱
因为爱一个人而宽容
因为有一个梦而放纵
因为等一个人而漂泊
因为想一个人而寂寞
因为爱一个人而温柔
像夜的朦拢
你的深情难懂
我的世界
因为你而不同
因为想一个人而解脱
因为爱一个人而宽容
像风的自由
你的深情难留
你的背影是我最美丽的所有

Relieve...

Thanks to GOD
My mom is recovering...
Today is the third day she was admitted to hospital
But she id doing fine...
Just a little bit of fever.
She would really be fine after a few more days
Remember what happened on Monday night
I was scared to death...
She was half unconsious when we sent her into hospital
Go high fever which is forty degree
She keep on sweating...
And she don't even have energy to lift her hand up when we are helping her changing
She don't even recognised us
She forget all the things....
I was in tears...
Feel sorry for my mom
Make me feel guilty seeing her suffering
She don't remember anythings
I pray and pray and pray
We rush to hospital....
The doctor check on her...
Asking her questions and some of it she cannot even answer.
After several hours...
Here come the result....
Virus infection...
The virus went into her blood so therefore causing her to be unconsious
The doctor gave her antibiotics injection
I feel relieve after knowing that she can be cured
I stay at hospital everyday.
Looking after her...
Although it is tiring but I feel happy when I see her getting better each day
I have to wake up early in the morning
Bring my brother go to school and then I am off to hospital
Exchange shift with my father for he needs to go to work
My father...
The best husband I can say
I think he is the most exhausted person
He take care of my mum really well
Haha.
And a great father...
I think my mum's illness bought us all together
Strengthen our family bond
And faith towards GOD

Keep holding on to HIM

So many terrible things happen these few days
My mom went sick...
Very very very sick
I am worried about her
We went to seek for many doctors
Suddenly,
I feel like I really cannot do anything
I feel so useless
I feel like crying when I saw my mom's pale face
When I saw her walking without enough energy
Watching her vomiting
I really don't know what can I do
But pray...
I keep on praying
I know GOD will lead my family through this hardship
I should keep holding on to HIM
for I know HE will give me strength to walk through this valley
GOD did comfort my family
We did not feel like it is the end of the world
Have FAITH in HIM
This is what my father told me
He will cure mom, said my father.
Oh LORD in heaven,
please take away all the sickness from my mom
I will keep on praying
I know that GOD is listening to me
HE is doing something
I think HE has HIS own plan for my family
and I believe that it will be a good plan no matter what happen
I will keep holding on to HIM
no matter what happen
for I know HE will never leave us alone
HAVE FAITH IN HIM and I will find everything going on smoothly

What Can I Do

Words and Music by: PAUL BALOCHE and GRAHAM KENDRICK

When I see the beauty of a sunset's glory

Amazing artistry across the evening sky

When I feel the mystery of a distance galaxy

It awes ang humbles me to be loved by a GOD so high

What can I do?

But thank you

What can I do?

But give my life to you

Halelujah Halelujah

What can I do?

But praise you

Everyday make everything I do

A halelujah A halelujah halelujah

When I hear the story of a GOD of mercy

Who shared humanity and suffered by our side

of the cross they nailed you to

that could not hold you

Now you are making all things new

by the power of your risen life

What can I do?

But thank you

What can I do?

But give my life to you

Halelujah halelujah

What can I do?

But praise you

Everyday make everything I do

A halelujah a halelujah halelujah