What's going on??!!

I am lost
I don't know where am I now
What should I do
I need someone who will really care for me
I am tired
I am worn off
I want something which can motivate me now
I need shelter
I need comfort
I want to feel tight and safe
I need someone who could really lend me a shoulder
for me to cry to
I need someone who can take away all my worries
I need someone who really did cherish me
I want something
I am really tired of giving and giving
I need something to recharge
I want to go back to my own pace of life
I want to live just for myself for one day
I want to stop missing someone that badly
I don't dare to have any high hope
As i know there would be disappointment
When everything seems like going on fine
but it doesn't
There will always be something bad happen
When I really do feel the comfort and care
It just wouldn't last long
The things I want is easy
Just cares, comfort and shelter
But everytime when I almost grab it
It just disappear
I don't want any pity
I want a person who really did care for me everyday
Not just when something going on wrong
Not that I want everything to be fair and square
But just that i need something back too
I feel empty after I keep on giving
I want to know what I am doing now worth or not
I don't want to do it for nothing
What is going on me?
Lost my mind?
I feel like I am not myself
I want the old me to come back
Stop crying cause crying won't help anything
I am tired
Where am I?
What am I suppose to do now?